I have choiced living alone .It's great for me.I need to practice life experience.Although now I'm 21.I depend on parents and friends,always.

So they were saw me as a child until now.I must to be  independent.And try to study how to contral study & play time.I don't like play games online.

but sometimes I don't know what was I do.Maybe is wasting time.

My room is really comfortable.I could hear touching tweedle made by a kide of ancient Chinese music instrument.The song told me that here is quiet,

here is belong to who(only me).How many people can find a place like here?

So I'm king of the room...

I was feel so lonely when I just came here,but now I'm get used to ir.Nobady is lonely if he have something need to do.

Books and pen/pencil around me .

If I feel hungry at night I can buy a fast noodles and sausage ````

I can drawing as I like !!!!

I like here!
Thanks for mother's support!
I coundn't let you are disappoint!

Hold on John!

```````````````You are `````!!!!Great !!!!!

Thanks for your teach!

Swindler!!!!!!

                                   03/09/2008

God,I don't how to begining ````

I really need your help.

Anybody is sadder than me at the moment.

Grandmother,why were you left us?

Until now I havn't do anything for you.

You give me the best and more than any grandson/sister.

You always talk with me that who is a outstanding bo/ygirl.

I know you hope me as them one day.

You never beaten and scolden me.

You just give me love.

Even you touched my cold hand and face for give me warm when you were lay on the bed in ill.

I know my love was enough to you.

But I'm not enough.

Even I couldn't back hometown for your funeral.

So sorry`````

I'm a bad grandson`````

 

Sky is raining`````

the rain is for you`````

 

                                                                      6:29 03/03/08

 

                                                          God please bless Grandmother in heaven

I don't want to talk about love, because I don't know what is it ? But now I have to writting some thing about you.In fact I don't know if I believe you when we were fresh man until now.We should as what's kind of lover?You always told me ,you love me so much and asked me for fall in love with you again.You told me that you break the relationship with the soldier.You said that you loved him ,because you found more same styles as me.But the day before yesterday,I'm so sad when I send you back hoom.He was rund up 3 times.Although you were ungry for the call,but I could felt you just ungry for the time(because I'm at here,you were in my hug)Really you didn't break it.

You don't know that how sad I was felling.I was be cheat more and more ```times.

I couldn't believe you forever.

And please don't send message or call me.

You don't belong to me.

As this, I can hope you are happiness.

See you!

Many things have happened during this time.The so bad thing was Grandmother in seriously ill.She is lay on the bed almost 10 months.She couldon't got anything,even sometimes forget us....

Just look at me when I saw her.She kind eyes told me that you mus hard study for a good life in the future.You must going out one day...

I love you my kind grandmother. I pray to God for your healthy.I believe that you can as usual when I bacj hometown at the summer vacation.

At the new term,My Dada accepted me to rent a room for live out of dormitory.I can get enough spaces for study.But just begin ,I felt so lonely.All neighbours are lover.Only me alone.I think I can accustomed to the new enviroment.I tell myself that I'm different than others at here.I have a big dream in my limited life .

So hard study is my first important thing.I shouldn't think any more about other things.

Tomorrow is 3.3````