I would write something about this term.

Maybe because every term I have write some about that what to do in this term.

About Study , Feeling and if I have changed something and so on.

 

Of course!

I'm a student , so the first , I need talk about study.

Study include both major and English.
I don't know what I study concern art.

I had try to hard study it. But I haven't find I get what?

Yes my basic too bad.

Even my Aesthetic standard is a serious plobrem.

A art student don't know what is nice what is bad.

Maybe there are more experience in it.

I havn't read more and see more .

How to promote the level?

I cann't ask and  accuse anybody.

It's my fault.

Waste 50 percent time .

In fact I have one year to study,only .

If I go on like this , I will die````as suicide.

I know what I must do .

 

About English

Exact, I don't want to discuss it.

Due to English is a language, more person can operate it very well than me.

Another hand , I study it too hard , but get it seldom.

So I don't want refer it````

But I like it so much.

Special It relate to my dream.

 

About feeling.

I don't know I would how to describe it.

Whether I have feeling?

Maybe I lost it when I finished the last love.

Once I was belief feeling is wonderful .

But now I don't know what is love?

Love is truly.

It's too hard to imagine it.

Is it real I cann't find my love forever?

At least I'm a kindhearted person.

Where is my love?

 

I'm not good guy.

I have do more bad things.

Even I like cheat .

Of course It's joke sometimes.

But I real chane something about my character .

There are both good and bad.

I'm adult man.

I need know that keep what and cancel what.

 

I call the diary is <new "spring">

It's  not mean's I love spring.

But I like the new .

Spring is new .

New begin 

New way

New life.

Everything is new.

Of course we need new heart.

 

 

Thanks Da Jiang and Mei lan for teach me how to pray .

And Let me know that Jesus would forgive us mistake when we ask his.

I believe that Saviour is benevolent feeling towards all persons in the world.

Whatever I will transform my mistake.

 

The couple of Australian are very kind for me.

Mei Lan have bought some gouaches for  prepare let me teach her how to drawing .

Of coure ,

It's my honour.

 

Will Finishe the term .

Time too  fast.

It isn't wait everone.

The summer vacation , I wouldn't come back hometown.

This is the first time leave my mum such long time.

I know that my family miss me.

Me too.

I hope you are so happiness and healthiness.

I will go on study .

I will change the not good situation.

Why me like this ,now?

Even myself can't belief me like this.

I'm wrong.

I'm wrong.

I'm wrong.

I'm wrong.

God please forgive me.

I promise that I wouldn't do it forever.

GOD

At least I realized my mistake.

Sorry

I will change ```````````````````````````````````````````

I haven't write blog ,long time.
But today , I have to write something why my teacher say me that my drawing basic too bad. Once , I always found some causes for me. Due to , I'm young one or two years than my friends. I told me that after one or years ,I can drawing it very well.,I would like this . But The true told me what I'm wrong.
I have to accept the fact .
My basic too bad.
I cann't finding causes for me .
Today my Clothing design teacher say my drawing of Models bad than her son's painting when he 6-years old ```````````````````````````````````````
My god !
I would how to face it.
Before , I always felt my painting not too bad.
Even It's good than more classmates.
WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG````
Who could give me some effective way to study of drawing and English.
I'm too bad.`````
```````````````````````````````````I will changing the fact``````````````````````````````````````````

Yesterday .
My teacher suggested that me would reading some book about art of Mr. Wang who is famous artist in nowadays China and America.
In fact,
Last year,
I had read <World Architecture Design ＆ History> of his.
He had writed more books .
He let me know what art is scientific knowledge.
So I couldn't really understood his book when I first read it. (Science is too difficult to absorb````)
But I found <Nordic White Night - A Tour of Scandinavian Design> in library ,today.
The book very delicate.
I find a new power of art when I hold it in my hand.
`````Europe is my dream.
Behind is my excerpt from the book.
Nordic Impression
“对于北欧，我就是这样不断地接触。虽然不懂他们的文字，但是总是喜欢那种感觉，那种我们中国人最缺乏的感觉：人烟稀少，渺远，空灵，神话一样的静盈，毫无浮躁，千百年的文化漫漫地沉淀起来，基本没有什么断裂，革命，骚动，就那样积淀起来，好像万年的冰河，千年的文化慢慢地积淀。看他们的设计，听他们的音乐，完全好像是天外的事物一样，越是忙乱，越是弥是珍贵。我喜欢北欧的东西，不仅仅是表面的，而更多是精神上的一种完全另类的调节”。
Sorry !
Because , I haven't time to translate it. So in Chinese.
Thanks Mr. Wang what he let more art sthdents find a scientific way of art and promoting our art  emotion etc. 
  

The world too unfair .
Why me say that?
We haven't to accept that money can purchase everything.
Once , I belief I can via my effort to achieving my dream.
But now .
I have to change the mind .
Money change it.
Specially the country.
Hypocritical relationship.
We can't belief anybody.
No person would help you````
Oh I forget a old saying that we haven't really friends, only had profit in common.

Thanks Mum's suggestion.
I love you my Mun.